i have no idea, no clue, seems that it is, everything i do, with no real resources, no-one to propel me, what a friend had said, i was sitting on a gold mine, but i am finding, i don’t know how to mine.

i work constantly, practically everyday, it is wearing me out something crazy – this along with severe depression and PTSD from a crazy war that nobody knows about, and that which i was submersed in, not only does anybody really know about it, not too many people at all, but there are fewer who even care.

i mean give a damned, like about people who were tormented and their lives destroyed, if i , or others give up, it does not matter at all. that is the way i am feeling right now!!! like being the prisoner of a war again and all the what i can’t do in front of me every long day, not a second passing, and all that is tried is a fail.

have i anything to offer? i believe so, and many tell me that i do too!!! i just can’t get to that place where i give that what i can offer, to be all of who i am potentialized (my made up word again – i feel like Bush without all the $$$ and power)

well, instead of a poem, i give U this, maybe it is why i am nobodies Valentine, for year!!! BLAGHHHH !!!!

still, in all of this, i really do hope love shall be triumphant!!!

love triumphant (2nd of 3 – v2)

Peace and Love – still! Photo on 11-18-12 at 11.09 PM